Always have Faith

I feel so depressed. I use to be so close to you. I saw you basically every day this semester and I thought we grew to be really good friends. You were someone I could go to for anything and I really thought our friendship was those one-of-a-kind things. I don’t know what I did. It hurts me that we don’t even text each other to hang out or to just talk like how we use to. The worse feeling is seeing your car next door at Mari’s and not being invited to hang out. I don’t understand how it can go from being so close to this. I’m so heart broken. I thought you were going to be a life long friend. :/ That list is shrinking. 

I’ve been praying so hard for my friend Riley who has cancer. I hope that his test results aren’t that bad and he doesn’t need that much chemo. I hope that everything will be alright. I can’t imagine life without his crazy face. He’s a genuine friend, really. He took me out to eat all the time. Probably explains why I’ve gained so much weight. He took care of me when I was drunk. He never fails to make a person laugh. He’s a happy soul and I love that about him. Please keep him in your prayers. He’s having a fundraiser on June 3 at Savory Perks if you would like to help out. 

Sick sick sick. Fever and red bumps all over my body. Fantastic. I guess it’s all good that no one asks me to hang out.

I feel so isolated from everyone now. I feel unimportant. Everyone has their own friends now and no one asks me to hang out with them. I was suppose to hv a pool party and no one showed up. Fucking sad.
One of my friends is leaving to Houston for an internship during the summer.
The other has cancer. :’( we don’t know how severe it is yet.
It’s gonna be a lonely summer.

Went to visit the sick in Harlingen.
Randomly decided to go eat at Dirty Al’s
Afterwards walked on the beach which was perfect.
Went on a date with Marty.
Ran the hill on Dove with Melissa.

On my way home from the movie, I started to believe that I was Iron Man flying while I was driving my car. Yeah, I’m badass.

Finally booked my flight. Can’t wait to be reunited with my bestie and see her graduate from hs